Introduce yourself

Eric, Thank you for shairng this heart felt story. We are so honored to have you, your experiences and your renewed spirit in our movement.

I am a 62 Y/O South African suicide survivor {Action - 09 March 2022} [Diagnosis - Chronic Suicidal PTSD]

·         At 14 years of age diagnosed with Psychiatric conditions of Chronic Inferior Complex and Introverted Personality Disorder  =  With respect said nurtured by my Mother as per investigation under hypnosis.

·         !972 – 1980 - Victim to the “Team of School Bullies” the four Delport Brothers, Lunches taken, Their homework done, School Cases carried and Break periods Tied inverted to the rugby posts singing the school song.

·         1984 – went into Military Service and my mother purchased the motor vehicle licence for my motorcycle (my only form of transport) so that my brother could use it to go to work, having flunked out of school. He one weekend DUI landed under a police vehicle in a roundabout. Motorcycle totalled zero insurance due to DUI, so hire purchase was due. On my insisting that he takes over the payments, I was forbidden entry into the house and had to find alternative accommodations.

·         December 2021 after 38 Years of what I was led to think was a marriage relationship of honeymoon proportions, my wife and her daughter [married and divorced] confronted me with a situation that wifey was flying out the next day to her family in Port Elizabeth {No Planning or discussions with me, plane tickets in their grubby little paws.} I lodged objection as there were commitments to which wifey was responsible and no alternative arrangements made. I was then hit with the accusation of freedom suffocation and handed Divorce notice a week later.

·         Due to divorce, I lost access to my accommodation entitlement at work and was evicted having to procure alternative lodgings. I moved into my new lodgings 04 March 2022 with rent now a monthly factor.

·         March 09 2022 at the office, the Human Resources VP, informed us that as the Workforce had garnished a court order to a protected strike, we were to go home on a “NO WORK NO PAY” policy as it was due to the strike.

CAMELS BACK BROKEN, I WENT SUICIDAL slashing wrist and neck arteries and veins, in front of all present in the open plan office. This landing me in the local private hospital’s wellness ward, under psychiatric supervision and observation.

My 25-day stay brought out in me, the underlying Positively Motivated Persona, buried deep in my Psyche, highlighting the fact that this whole incident turned out beneficial.

WITHOUT THIS NEGATIVE INCIDENT I WOULD NEVER HAVE MET MY POSITIVE STRONGER PERSONA.

After being discharged from hospital I have been SURFING the WEB [Anxiety and Depression Awareness Sites], since being admitted into the Lenmed Private Hospital Wellness Ward after my meeting on the Precipice of Eternal Damnation, looking into the Valley of Destruction [09 March 2022]. This all being part and parcel part of my self-healing campaign.

THEN

Just over 2 weeks ago I received a random video reel message on Facebook from Chloe Bellerby@ Chloe Bellerby Mental Health “https://web.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100059691933763&sk=reels_tab&__cft__[0]=AZWtyaybiFWh9zJrv0LCL-As6PqRwXAEfGw1uQfy65zDRsUrFuMvAPc3Kaabf-erXyflGFfonEH8z2v_Qy68wPxLkMQMM8mKZsabRSNlqbWvc77RHbTwNPs32n5AtQbk-sj9xpNCM6AbY0UVgcNe7fnN8GN1jQCy3AGM8oaXL2PvCA”

This was a call to reality as it hit home, here was this beautiful young lady who has been through a replica of my life; she was telling my story. Chloe has just celebrated her 7-year anniversary of her rebirth: THE NEW POSITIVE PERSONA.   I realised there are others, MANY, who have been on that same Precipice looking into that same valley; and came to the realisation that I am currently going it alone and my recovery and recouperation is moving at a snail’s pace. Chloe through this reel taught me “SHARING is CARING” and SHARING is a stronger route to self-healing and in the process assisting others to realise the same fact.

I then adapted the Mantra of “GOD is using BROKEN SOULS like YOU and ME to find and assist BROKEN SOULS like YOU and ME.”

Since becoming active on Chloe’s platform, where I deemed, being born before technology, I would be of a lot more worth than starting my own Influencers Platform, why not just strengthen someone else on their crusade. I am growing in person Psychologically and Personality. I am now actively assisting in commentary on 3 Mental Health and 2 Tourette’s Awareness Platforms and received TOP FAN STATUS by their administration. My “Friends List” has quadrupled with requests received from followers on these platforms and they are all attracted to the Positive Persona I have developed with my participation.  So much so that this Soul who was Chronically Introverted and suffered with a Massive Inferior Complex has been invited by MC Jimmy Zest to join “Be the Spark” movement, to talk about my life and my Road to Recovery. I will be a “Spark” in the “FIRE of DESIRE” for a STRONGER HARMONIOUSLY HEALTHIER WORLD.

🇿🇦 ERIC NELL = 62Chronic Suicidal PTSD suicide survivor * 18 Months & CountingBroken Soul 💔 Recovering❤️‍🩹 Loving 💖 & Sharing😍